Playing the dating game...

So, I SUCK at the dating game. I fail, time and time again. I don't know what it is about me.

This post is dedicated to my good friend, Sierra, because her knowledge on the subject matter never fails to impress me.

Her knowledge can be summed up by the following phrase she said to me once: (and this isn't word for word -- it was much funnier and phrased much better when she said it to me) "It's so hard because you have to show that you are interested, but you can't come right out and say it, even if you want to, because if you do that then even if they were interested, they won't be anymore, because you showed your interested too early."

Now who are the people that struggle with dating? I think it's those of us who are too sensitive. We don't know how to handle the sensitive emotions we've got bottled up inside of us. We care too much about people. So, how have I dealt with this trait? I know exactly what I've done...I've built a wall. My wall surrounds me so completely and is so thick that I don't know who or when or ever I could ever let it down. I don't let people in because I fear realizing who they really are and then wanting to distance myself, and that's just too hard to do. Why would I want to distance myself? Well, I think basically because I find that people annoy me and it's more effort to be around them then to not be. I also find the whole getting to know you process somewhat painful. You might think you want to commit to dating them, or to be their friend, but what if you change your mind, and how do you know how committed they want to be? Of course, this is all retarded and this should happen naturally, but I've grown up knowing that life requires effort and God knows I've tried to combat this endlessly.

It's good that my good friends are the only people that read this, because I'm revealing way too much information about myself.

Why I moved to Vegas...

1. I needed a reason to get out of D.C. not because I don't like D.C., but because I needed change in my life for multiple reasons (escaping my parents being one of them).

2. I realized my life needed progression and going back to school seemed to make sense.

3. Natalie, Niki, Adrienne - all friends from BYU and all grew up in Vegas, and they are normal and cool people. However, none of them live here now. Hmmm....I wonder if that says something.

4. I knew there were lots of mormons here, and I'm trying to get married.

5. It's close to Spencer in St. George.

6. It's closer to my good friends in Utah.

7. It's warm year round.

8. I told myself I wanted to be in a more relaxed environment and around more laid back people. I don't know if this is true now. Yes, I'm a laid back person, but I don't know HOW laid back I am.

Those were my reasons. Are they good enough reasons? I kind of ask myself this daily.

Hair advice, please

So, I haven't blogged in forever, and I hate it, because I feel out of touch with some of you a bit. And, ALEX CANNON - RIGHT NOW you must invite me to your blog.

So, here's the deal, I've been so busy with finishing up this semester that I haven't been blogging. I finally have a chance to get my hair done this week, and I'm wanting advice. I mostly just get an all-over color when I go (yes, I have gray hair to hide), but I'm wondering if I should do highlights. I've had highlights maybe one other summer of my life. I've just started thinking recently that I should do it again. Could you please tell me what you think? Do I look better with just dark hair, or should I do some highlights?

You can tell my hair is lighter in this picture a little bit: